Sometimes I skip chores

My life and me are far from perfect. Anything, I do, is far from perfect either. I work a manual job (office cleaning) and I get tired. I get tired not only from my job obligations, but from my anxiety and social phobia too. It took me months to start feeling more comfortable. Nonetheless, I still feel tense and socially awkward among the people at the office. Most of them are nice and friendly, but my mind still puts me in defense mode. I was built this way.

There are many reasons why I have taken this job and I will not list them here. They will sound as excuses to you, but to me it all makes sense for my situation and my life. And I don't feel obliged to explain myself.

I am not a success professionally, but my soul still yearns the things it loves. And here comes the moment to compromise and prioritize.

I make no secret of the fact that I would rather lie on a sofa than sweep beneath it. But you have to be efficient if you're going to be lazy. – Shirley Conran| Image © Ivy Son

Because, besides work, I have a household, a family. A laundry needs to be washed, apartment to be cleaned, food to be cooked. And other similar activities.

I try to balance everything, but being a sleeper (I like and need to sleep a lot), very often I don't have enough time for books, blogging, movies, yoga. The things, that feed my soul. And, if my soul is not fed, it becomes grumpy. I become unhappy and angry. So, sometimes I just skip chores. I finish the most urgent ones, but my cleaning suffers once in a while.

Our apartment is never perfectly clean, but I do maintain some relative cleanliness and tidiness.

There are weeks, when I rush to do everything around the house before having personal time only for myself, but I get so tired, that I go to sleep as soon as I am done.

And there are weeks, when I turn off my desire to have it all done. I just want to relax and spend time doing random things. I want to read, or design an image, to work on my FB page, or simply scroll through my news feed. I want to go out for a walk with my daughter, or watch a movie with her.

Sometimes I skip chores for my own sanity. I put my mild form of OCD on hold, and roll with life to enjoy and relax without guilt. I try to keep it all balanced as much as it is possible for my abilities.

What about you? What do you skip in order to find your balance?

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